So today, I was talking to a friend and she was telling me that perhaps I’ve had such a bad history with relationships because I have a fear of or a problem with commitment. I told her, no, I was always the one who wanted more, but then I thought about that. Maybe I do. I’m just not sure if I fear commitment or not.
I don’t really fear commitment. I mean I’m hoping to get married someday. I would love to have kids someday. But I guess right now I’m just in a super duper rush to do so. I think perhaps that I just haven’t found someone that is willing to put up with me. I’m not an easy person to get along with. I’m sure any of my friends could tell you that!
As for the “one”, I stopped looking for her a long time ago. As a matter of a fact, I think I already met her, and I already lost her, so there ya go. Opportunity came and gone, and here I am, beer in one hand, smoke in the other. I’m cool with that.
And valentine’s day is next week. UGH. I don’t hate Valentine’s. No really. But what is it about other people that press you on and on? “oh, you should find someone” or “oh you’re too good to be alone right now, you should find someone!” Whatever. I just don’t like how people act around Valentine’s day. I think the day is great, but some people…UGH I say.
I think swan said it the best. “Yoshi, you’re like the Charlie Brown of Love. That football of love just keeps being taken away from you.” I agree. I personally think it’s karma myself. I must have been one nasty person in my prior life.
So there you have it. I’m on the Karmic Credit Plan. Have fun now, but it’s payback forever.
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